Thanks and giving

Happy Thanksgiving to all. I hope you eat lots of turkey and be thankful for what you have. Of course also watch some football and plan out what stores you are going to spend money in on black friday.
So you might wonder what it is that I'm thankful for? I'm thankful for my family first and foremost. All of my friends and my haters...lol. Also for my life and that I haven't had any major illnesses. For my freedom and rights that men and women have given their life for me to have. The fact that I have a job when the unemployment rate is going up and they don't expect it to get better until 2010. I'm thankful that I have a roof over my head and food on the table and money in my pocket of course...lol.
I have decided to start giving. I always donate a couple dollars here and there but now I will be doing more. I have applied to be a volunteer at my moms school. She teaches 5th grades. Oh and by the way many of you who know me know I don't like kids except my little cousins and Miss Nisey of course. So also long as I get approved I will be going to her class once a week and helping them with their math work and reading to them. Since my mom started teaching she has asked me to do it. I didn't want to be bothered but now I think it will be a good thing to do. I know that what you put into life is what you get back...
Well blog heads its off to help my grandma make the apple pies...everything homemade even the crust. My grandfather and he always made the pies the day before. Well, this is the first holiday without him...its sad. But no matter what we will make the best of it. So enjoy your family and be thankful for the time you have with them. Much love. Happy Turkey day....lol

Too nice or not mean enough??

Have you ever done and done for a person and all they do is walk all over you? Lately, I have been feeling like I have been doing too much for people and not getting anything in return. Now, I know that your suppose to do for the sake of doing and not wanting anything in return. I have learned when you do too much for people they start to take advantage of you. As Nellz, would say "Drea you just too nice, learn how to say no!" Lol, I love her for that. She lets me bitch about the people that walk all over me and don't shit for me.
I just don't understand how you can loan someone something and they take their precious time getting it back to you. I have the attitude that what's mine is yours. I need to stop that. Over the past couple of months I have loaned countless items and they still haven't been returned. Now I know when I lent the items out the borrowing person knew it was a loan...so where is my stuff??
Or I hate it when a person needs you to do something for them and you do. But when you need them they are no where to be found. Missy always reminds me that I need to stop helping other people especially because when I need them they don't help. Ugh, people just make me so mad sometimes. I do whatever I can to help someone so why don't they help me when I need it?
As, you can see I'm just venting about a certain type of people. I know that no everyone is like that and I'm lucky to know a few good people. So the next time you borrow something from someone try to return it in a timely manor. Or the next time someone calls you for a favor try and do it because the day might come that you will need something from them. Much love!

MEN...

Are good men the last of a dying breed? I believe so. Ok so I'm a little tired of men these days. Before I go any farther let me just say I love guys and in no way trying to bash them. But seriously where the hell are all the good men lately. They don't know how to act when they have a good girl. Now I may not be the perfect girl but I'm a good catch. I'm the type of girl that will do anything for her man and sometimes it ends up biting me in the ass. One example would be my ex, I gave him the world and it still wasn't good enough he ended up cheating. I mean of course we both did wrong but I believe the key to a good relationship is honestly. Another example would be a friend of mine that wants to be with me but he thinks I'm going to play second to another chick. I'm too good to play second and I deserve to be the only chick.My grandma told me the other day that she feels bad for me because guys my age either cheat or wanna be babied. I completely agree with her. I know not every guy is bad but it just seems like I come across the assholes. I think that I have been so use to dealing with assholes that I might not realize a good man when he comes.Now I may not be perfect. I'm bitchy and hard to deal with..but its going to take a real man to handle me. I haven't given up on Mr. Right. I just hope that when he comes he will be patient with me and understand that he might have to break down the walls I have put up. And to all the good men out there keep up the good work...you will find a girl that appreciates you!

***I am selfish,impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes,I'm out of control and at times hard to handle.But if you cant handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best***

Highs and Lows

Highs and lows...that basically describes my life in a nut shell. The past couple of months have been crazy for me. Some of the events that caused the craziness are best friends moving up North, a breakup, a new job, starting back up a friendship with a childhood friend and the passing of my grandfather. There are days when I'm happy and there are days when I'm sad. I truly wish I could find a happy median but I also know that takes time.
Lately, I have just been feeling blah. Its a feeling I just can't shake. A few weeks ago found this quote while flipping through a magazine. "Keep your face to the sunshine and you will never see the shadow" The quote made me start thinking.....Instead of worrying about what we don't have we need to be thankful for what we do have. I'm so thankful for my family, friends and my life. I'm trying not to let the little things stress me out anymore. If you put positive into the world that's what you get out of it.
I use to be stuck on this whole this guy broke my heart so fell bad for me or I didn't have a father so this is why I act like this. Instead of looking for pity I now look for the positive in everything. Its hard but it does help me. What most people need to learn is how to turn something negative into something positive.
We spend so much of our life thinking that if we have more money or more power things will be better. Biggie said it best more money more problems. Now I'm not saying that more money wouldn't help but most of the time when we say more money we speak about millions. Before I always wanted the newest clothes, sunglasses, shoes and cellphones. Now don't get me wrong I still do but if I can't afford it today then I will get it when I can. I'm not gonna make myself broke to have a new fit but no gas in my car to show it of...lol.
So now when life hands me a lemon I just need to make lemonade. There are always going to be good and bad days but the true test is if you make it through them. This morning we went to leave some flowers on my grandfathers grave. The whole ride it was cloudy once we got there the sun peeked through the clouds. Maybe that was my Grandfathers way of telling me that there will be brighter days.



**Today is Veteran's Day. I would like to say a special thank you to everyone that is or has served our country...especially you DOC! RIP to my favorite Vet...I love you Grandpa.
Walter P Fijalkowski
PFC US Army
World War II
Bronze star and Purple heart

Politicing

Vote or die...vote for change...these quotes have become so familiar in our every day vocabulary. Voting in this election was so important. Now I'm not going to say which way I voted. Personally I feel that neither one of them is right for what America needs right now. With the country in a recession even though no one wants to talk about it. I just hope whoever wins will be able to carry the country through this. Times are tough, gas prices are high, unemployment is high, stock is down, and people can't afford to live anymore. WAR NEEDS TO END...bring our men and women home!! Thank you to all of them that have been fighting for our country.
So I went out and voted today and waited in line for 2 hours. Now I know some people only waited 30 minutes...in 4 years I'm either going to vote early or do absentee ballot. I really miss the electronic voting machines. I think its good to have a paper trail since Florida always seems to have a problem with voting. As soon as I was done voting I went straight to my grandparents. As I sat down and discussed my voting experience with my grandmother I realized how truly lucky I am. One I was able to vote in one of the most important elections and two I was also able to witness my grandmother vote in the same election. My grandmother and I watched the news together. While watching the news a reporter stated that whites would not vote for a blacks...and it made me think why can't they say that blacks won't vote whites.

So now we know Obama will be the next president. I hope that he will show great leadership. More importantly, I hope Americans will give him a chance. I hope that he will be able to help America out of these troubled times. For everyone who went out and vote...Good job...if you didn't vote then you can't say shit...haha. Its nice to be a part of history. Has this 'm election changed peoples views on race? Maybe maybe not....I'm Andrea and I approve this message...lol.

Footprints

As I sit here on the beach to clear my head...I think about the footprints people have left on my heart. Just like the footprints I leave on the sand. I have had a lot of great people come into my life and leave footprints on my heart. Some have stayed awhile and some have only stayed a short period of time. In a day in age where its so hard to meet good people...how have I been so lucky to have so many in my life.

A few of the people that left footprints are my mother, my grandparents, Amy, Missy, Kristen, T, Nick, and the rest of my family and friends. Of course my mother because she gave birth to me and raised. She is truly an amazing women. She has taught me everything that I know in life. My grandparents have shown me love and what a family should be. They have been there for me no matter what. Their love is something that I could only have in life. Amy...where could I even began. There are so many ways she has impacted my life. I love her more than she will ever know. She has been there through it all. Missy...another amazing friend. She always see the rainbow even through the rain. I don't know where I would be without her. Kristen...she's family by blood and a friend by choice. T...he's always by my side even when I don't deserve it. There are so many more people that touched my life that it would take a few hours to write this.

My only hope is that I'm able to leave footprints on the hearts of the people I come across. I try to live my life in a good manor and treat everyone with respect. So in closing thank you to all the people that have left footprints on my heart. You mean more than you will ever know. People come into your life and people go. The ones you love are always in your heart and if your lucky a plane ride away.