Monday, May 17, 2010

Don't call it a come back...

I'm not sure if anyone still reads my post but I'm back and promise to write something at least once a week. I can't even remember the last time I have posted something. I have to start someone on the update so here it goes....

2010 has been a year of learning and letting go. I have decided to end a friendship with someone that I considered to be my best friend. I appear to be a strong person and I am but I sometimes forget how strong I truly am. Lately I have allowed people to walk all over me. But not anymore, I'm putting my foot down. I respect myself way too much then to let you treat me like this. No more of your games.

I feel that I have grown a lot of the past couple of year. I refuse to be with a man that is cheating on me and feels that forgiveness is only one gift away. I would rather be alone then to be in an unhappy relationship. There are plenty of men that would like to be in a relationship with me but i refuse to settle. The right man will come on day.....until then I'm having fun with the Mr. Right Now'

I'm currently working two jobs and I finally have my own place. My roommates are not the best but whatever I can deal with it. I'm tossing around the idea of moving to NY. I feel like now is time for a chance since I have no family or relationship holding me back. Your 20's are the trial and errors phase, 30's are for settling down and preparing your home and career and 40's are too enjoy what you have made of your life.

I have slowed down on the party scene because I was getting in way too deep. I feel like I drink to get rid of my problems but that only numbs them for the time being. When you sober up the problems are right where you left them. Plus, it was getting old running into the same people all the time.

I have decide to become a vegatrian and I'm enjoying it thus far. I think its a great change for my lifestyle and i have also decided to give up soda. Its so bad for you. The only thing that I cant give up is my coffee but I have cut down a great deal.

I'm still the same old me just trying to improve my life and prepare for my future. I still have a group of amazing people supporting me and i have got rid of some of the dead weight. My life is amazing and I love living it! If you where waiting for a new post here you go. I hope you enjoyed the "come back" lol and I promise to do better. Let me know your thoughts....

Much Love

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

A Dream.....

“A dream is a wish your heart makes When you're fast asleep In dreams you will lose your heartache Whatever you wish for you keep Have faith in your dreams and someday Your rainbow will come smiling through No matter how your heart is grieving If you keep on believing The dream that you wish will come true A dream is a wish your heart makes When you're feeling small Alone in the night you whisper Thinking no one can hear you at all You wake with the morning sunlight To find fortune that is smiling on you Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow For all you know tomorrow The dream that you wish will come true.”

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Fate....or just good timing

Yesterday was an interesting day....I ran into a friend that I havent spoke to in 6 months. Its surprising that we live so close to each but never crossed paths. He had been on my mine alot the past couple of weeks. And from what he says I was on his as well.

So this is basically what happened....I went to publix to buy something for lunch since my mom did not cook what I asked her too...which in turn left me with no lunch. Just a side note I hate the mall food court. As Im walking into publix I felt someone touch my neck. I turned around thinking it was just some random heart dropped as it was none other than "Mr. Brown Sugar". My heart was pounding so hard...I didn't know what to think or even say. But he broke the ice by saying "I could recognize that ass any day" Of course we caught up as best we could within the 20 mins we spent walking around the store. He is still with the psycho chick(if you read my blogs its the chick from my posting called "Myspace Drama") she brings me up Now him and I dont talk at all but she is still worried about me which i think is funny. I'm not the type to break up a happy home which is why I him be. He also spoke about certain things going on in his life and how he wish I was there for him because I'm the only person that knows how to handle him. I told him about all the going ons in my life which he somehow already We basically run with the same circle but stay away from places we know we will see each other. I let him know how much I missed having him in my life...after all he is one of my best friends. It felt so good to see him but the time went by too fast. This happened just yesterday and we cant even speak....its so hard knowing that a person is so close yet so far away.I know that him and I will ending up being together cause we have been through way to much just to give up on each other. As we are saying goodbye he asked me one question...."are we still brown sugar?" with a smile on my face I looked him in the eyes and said "if you even have to ask there's something wrong with you."

So this blog is dedicated to you "Mr. Brown Sugar" cause you said I never write blogs anymore. So hopefully you will read this and know that I'm thinking about you. And how much you truly mean to me.....Love you...

you are the perfect verse over a tight beat!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009


Sorry I have been M.I.A for so long. There has been alot going on. I have been working more, I just got a house that I'm closing on Friday, and just been spending alot of time with my fam. Oh and of course my best friend came into town and we partied for a week straight....Since I hardly blog any more....I decided to give you all the way you might be about to get a hold of me....
AIM- XmsminnieeX


Facebook- smh...i dont know the
With all the site out there its too hard to keep up. My new addiction is thats where I spend the most of my time....

Here are some new pix....enjoy

Kristen & Me
Missy and Me


Friday, January 9, 2009

Ball of Confusion??

Lately...I have been seriously confused. Ugh between men and friends and I use both terms loosely. Is cheating the new black? And is lying a part time job for friendships? As well all know...

I'm always having some type of man drama. I'm still attracting men with girlfriends/ wifeys. I mean what's really good with that? Where ever the sign on my body that says if you have a wifey come holla at me I want it taken off of me now! In a day and age where I don't think people really value relationships...I'm stuck trying to find a real SINGLE man that won't cheat. Believe me its like finding a needle in a hay stack. Then the other problem is if I have a man will he cheat on me?? Well my answer is yes. I think all men cheat. Now I'm not gonna put all my business out there but I know many guys that have a wifey and fool around with other chicks. Just know that I don't play #2 very well, because #2 is the first loser and who the hell wants to be that??

Why is it that when you start to vibe with someone you push things a little faster then you should?? I started kicking it with this guy but its only been a week. I love spending time with him but I can't allow myself to get too close. He has a lot of good qualities but also has a few things I don't like. I don't trust any man as far as I can throw him. And lately guys haven't had a good track record with me. I have become so heartless due to all the shit that has happened to me. So I either rush things or I freak out and mess them up. So now of course he's being distant....but is he really someone I wanna be with?? Who the fuck knows....certainly not me.

Friends....they are just as hard to find as a real man. Now I'm not going to talk about this long but. I feel like I only have a few true friends. When I say a few I mean like 3 or 4. Everyone else to me is fake or people I chill with every once in awhile. Basically, if your my friend you don't need to lie to me. Just me honest please. Honestly is the key to any relationship. And why lie about something that broke up our friendship once before. I give people 3 chances and if you mess choose to use them on the same mistake that's on you. Is a guy really worth a friendship? I think not especially when he's trying to play both of you.

Well, I think I have said all I needed to say for one night. The year has been great other than this few issues...much love to all my blogheads. I hope your having a great new year!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

New Year 2009

2008 has been a crazy year. Where do I even begin.... with the loss of my grandfather, friends moving outta town, change of jobs, a bad break up and many other events. I'm glad that the year is over. Of course I'm thankful for everything that happened because it made me the person I am today. I believe that things happen for a reason and you will never get more than you can handle.

Now most people are going to make resolutions about what they are going to change for the new year. I really don't believe in doing that because most of the time they are broken with in the first month. Why do you have to wait until the new year to make changes in your life. You can wake up and see tomorrow that you wanna stop eating junk food and do it. You can only make change for yourself. And you certainly can't change for anyone.

If I were to entertain the thoughts of resolutions they would be the following: volunteer more, spend more time with my family, go back to school and live a healthier life. Even though I have gone to my moms school 2 times this year. I should try to go at least once a week. I actually enjoyed helping the kids and spending time with them. I spend time with my family but I don't think I should spend as much time with my mom as I should. I have want to spend more time with her. We barely see each other. We are both so busy so I have decided that once of a month we will have mommy and daughter day. Since I'm trying to get into modeling I need to tone up. I have been losing weight now I just need to get into the gym and tone myself up.

2009 is going to be the beginning of something big for me. I have 2 photo shoots in January and my friend Sarah and I plan on starting our own business with aspiring models. Which is also why I need to go back to school for business. I have a lot of plans for the New year and I can't wait to get started. I refuse to allow myself to accept the bs that I dealt with in 2008. I was you all a Happy New Year. Much love

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Myspace Drama

I don't even know where to began...a female decided to write me on myspace. Now I'm really not the type to entertain these type of actions. But she basically tried to G check me. I understand why she may feel threatened by me because her man and I are extremely close. Him and I have been best friends and close to relations for 7 years now.

Him and I stopped taking for a few weeks and then on Christmas she decided to send me a message on myspace. The message stated the following " thanks for leaving my man alone and Merry Christmas." Now first of all who the fucked ends a message like that. If your gonna go hard then go hard. Don't try to add any niceness to it. So, after I read the message I just laughed. Stuff like this is funny to me. I not the type of female to do something like that. You have to be pretty insecure to search for the person on myspace and wrote them on some bull.

So I called him and asked him what the letter was all about. He didn't even know about it. So I sent him a screen shot...thank god for that option on He called me back and said sorry on her behalf. I told him that I would leave it alone and not even respond back. Which is hard to believe because all my friends and I feel like she came at me wrong. I'm still not sure what makes me so mad about it...the fact that she wrote me or that she wrote me on Christmas.

Well, I ended up writing her back even though I shouldn't have. I was having a bad day and she caught me at the wrong time. I basically let her know what the deal was. So of course I'm waiting for her to respond back to me. I already know what she's gonna say. I'm mad at myself for even lowering myself to her level but at the same time I'm not going to allow anybody come at me wreckless.

This whole thing has put me outta my element. I don't have time for this. I'm moving on with my life and I don't have time for this petty drama. Him and I know what we have. I understand that many people don't get it but him and I do. He's just like me and I'm just like So if your reading this you know the DEAL!!!

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and Santa was good to you. Much love...kisses